Take the next exit

Do you ever get the feeling that it is just time to leave everything behind and start fresh?

Within the past six months I have made a number of choices that have exposed a side of me that I did not know existed. Some of them were for the better and a few were for the worse.

I’ve decided to class him as the double shot of all kinds of wrong.

I know holding onto this acquaintance will not benefit me in any way but there is something about this not so fairy-tale situation that leaves me wanting more every single time that we are in the same vicinity. Five minutes or five hours, this is a feeling that is almost as good as a double shot of Vodka in my signature cocktail Caipiroska.

On the contrary, I know he isn’t good for me so I chose to trial out a new fruit from the fruit basket. You could say he was tall dark and handsome with definitely not as many skeletons in his wardrobe as the daring double shot. He did everything right and was the perfect gentleman. But if he was so good to me why did I feel so disconnected when I was with him?

Instead of thinking with my mind, I have been thinking with my heart. All of my choices and decisions have been based around keeping the double shot out and away from my thoughts.

What I have just recently realised is that he has never left… He has always been at the back of my mind since the last words we had spoken to each other. 

Even though the connection is there, I am making it a personal challenge to stay away from the double shot.

Why?

Because no one likes a drunk girl.

Lets hope that six weeks in Europe for the summer is what completely rids me of my old habits and loves. The excitement I have for summer in Croatia is unexplainable. Lets just hope its as good as 2012 summer in Croatia, tanning the day away, dancing the night away with a few sassy moonlight kisses with strangers who had come to this glistening coastal country to party their problems away just the way I did.

Princess I.