Do you ever get
the feeling that it is just time to leave everything behind and start fresh?
Within the past
six months I have made a number of choices that have exposed a side of me that
I did not know existed. Some of them were for the better and a few were for the
worse.
I’ve decided to class him as the double shot of all kinds of wrong.
I know holding
onto this acquaintance will not
benefit me in any way but there is something about this not so fairy-tale
situation that leaves me wanting more every single time that we are in the same
vicinity. Five minutes or five hours, this is a feeling that is almost as good
as a double shot of Vodka in my
signature cocktail Caipiroska.
On the contrary,
I know he isn’t good for me so I chose to trial out a new fruit from the fruit
basket. You could say he was tall dark and handsome with definitely not as many
skeletons in his wardrobe as the daring double
shot. He did everything right and was the perfect gentleman. But if he was
so good to me why did I feel so disconnected when I was with him?
Instead of
thinking with my mind, I have been thinking with my heart. All of my choices
and decisions have been based around keeping the double shot out and away from my thoughts.
What I have just
recently realised is that he has never left… He has always been at the back of
my mind since the last words we had spoken to each other.
Even though the
connection is there, I am making it a personal challenge to stay away from the double shot.
Why?
Because no one
likes a drunk girl.
Lets hope that
six weeks in Europe for the summer is what completely rids me of my old habits
and loves. The excitement I have for summer in Croatia is unexplainable. Lets
just hope its as good as 2012 summer in Croatia, tanning the day away, dancing
the night away with a few sassy moonlight kisses with strangers who had come to
this glistening coastal country to party their problems away just the way I did.
Princess I.
